She also had a plan b-way, the West End and lifetime biography.
Rachel might have had a "plan" but it wasn't one grounded in reality. Rachel was engaged in a lot of magical thinking that if things fell the way she expected them to, then it would natural fall that she would have a quick road to success. That seemed to be behind so much of her pre-audition prep. Again, we see no actual rehearsal ([I don’tt think that] because we didn't see her her rehersing doesn't mean that she wasn't - not when the show was showing how diligently Kurt was rehersing) and more over the top affirmations that she's wonderful and she's going to be a star. As if she thought that if she told herself this often enough and believed it hard enough that it would just happen.
It's also interesting that when Rachel envisioned the roadblocks standing between her and inevitable stardom, they were either external (murderous stalker) or the absurd (menstrual bloat). Because in Rachel's mind, it would take something rediculous to prevent her from acheiving what she felt was hers by destiny. She could never allow herself to believe that she herself might faulter on her path to stardom, or that her talent might fall short. It's more evidence that her dreams were in no way rooted in the realty of what the theater world is like. She seemed to believe that all she had to do was open her mouth and everyone around her would just fall under the spell of her voice. At McKinely, that worked more often than not. But dealing with Carmen Tibideaux was something very new for Rachel to deal with - somone who had seen girls like Rachel hundreds of times in her career and wasn't just going to fall sway to her. This was someone who was going to be very critical and would be looking for the least flaw and wasn't going to grant any leeway. This was something that Rachel was not well-equiped to handle mentally, and in the end, that was what mattered. The pressure of being judged critically got to Rachel, and when she made a mistake, was so frazzeled that she wasn't able to recover.
The whole only one college is a plot point only.
I don't think so, at least not to Rachel. Not given the way Shelby had described NYADA and the fact that she wasn't ever able to beat NYADA graduates out for roles. Rachel had it pretty clearly established early on that NYADA was the highest ranked school out of all possible theater-based schools in her chosen city. And Rachel, in her mind, is the most talented student so it was natural that she would be accepted into the most selective and prestigious school. For Rachel this was the ultimate validation of how she viewed her talent. If she got into NYADA, that would certainly mean that she realy was that
talented and her destiny as a great star was all but assured. Going to Tisch or Julliard would be a major step down for Rachel (which is why she no longer entertained other options). For a talent as great as Rachel saw herself, only NYADA was worthy of her.
Hopefully, after an expected period of Rachel completely giving up on her dream (since she is a complete all or nothing personality), Rachel will emerge with a more grounded set of aspirations and be more mentally equipped to handle them.
Edited by TWoP Howard, May 5, 2012 @ 12:55 PM.
"Sorry, but" is dismissive