KerleyQ Anyone else pissed off yesterday when, during the montage at the end, Greenlee was looking at what was revealed to be Ryan's picture? Ryan?!
Thank you for mentioning that, because I kind of missed some of that montage, and only caught the tail end of the picture, and almost had myself convinced that it was an Aiden picture, and since the next shot was of Kendall, I thought, Yay! Kaiden! She's looking at a picture of Aiden! And then I came back to Earth. But thank you for explaining who with the what. And, damn you!
mr simpatico but then then she sees Kendall (a sister who's not always been kind to her in the old days, who resented the love Erica showered on Bianca and the hatred showered on her), who has in a short time come to mean more to Binks than anyone in the world, more than Lena, more even than Erica (as was obvious this week). Bianca imagines a world in which Kendall does not exist, in which she does not love Kendall and this leads her to thoughts to Voldespawn who in that moment becomes not the child of Michael Cambius but Miranda Montgomery, a lovable person in her own right. Someone who will be to Kendall's daughter or another of Binks' daughters what Kendall is to her and she so cannot have the abortion - it would to Binks like aborting what Kendall has come to mean to her.
Yes, that eloquently explains what I think went through Bianca's mind when she decided not to have the abortion. And, I have actually struggled with how to explain my thoughts on Bianca's screaming the word 'abortion' yesterday (which completely ripped my heart out - I'd like a spot on that train, please), and while this quote starts to explain my thoughts, I have a few more.
Bianca is so young, and so filled with love. Yes, of COURSE she thought of abortion at first, and no one would ever fault her for going through with it. I don't think she, or anyone near her, or anyone even affiliated with the show would try to convey that her having an abortion would have been the "wrong" choice for her. I'm very sensitive about this subject, and I haven't seen any instances where the show has put out the opinion that abortion is "wrong". I just think that in the instance of Bianca, it became the "right" decision for her to KEEP her baby.
And, it's Bianca. However she came to her decision, she came to it, she committed to it, and she committed to her baby, 100%. She's just not one to commit to things half-way. It's what has gotten her heart broken so many times in the past. She loves with her whole heart. As soon as she came to that decision in David's office, her baby stopped being a "decision" to be made, and became a real person to her. As real as a baby that has already been brought into the world. I think at the exact moment she came to her decision, her entire world just kind of shifted.
So, of course she's not going to be able to deal with Erica's view of the situation. She just can't. She expects her mother to support her whole-heartedly. It's what she has always craved - from her father, from Erica, from Myrtle, from everyone. She has always wanted to do the "right" thing, and make the choices that everyone dear to her will accept, and that they all will assure her that she is making the right choice.
Damn, I could go on for about 5 more paragraphs, but here's the gist. Bianca fretted, and came to a horribly difficult decision. Her sister, her doctor, and her best friend completely agreed with her, and assured her that she was wonderful in making that decision. In the end, her mother, the person she most wants to please, completely rejected that decision. She just isn't going to get over that any time soon, regardless of what "really" happened to her baby. And I think that her reaction is true, and right, and just painfull to see. Good job.
Oh, hell, I still have thoughts about Kryan and Reggie, but I'll hold off. For now.
But, Kennvid forever! Hah!